Welcome to the first of many installments of "A Peer's Perspective". I figured before I start giving you my perspective on various topics I'd spend this first article giving background on myself. My name is Matt and I'm the guy behind all of the social media that Mental Health Association of Nebraska puts into cyberspace. In my 28 years on this earth I've faced mental health issues such as anxiety, panic attacks, depression, and post-traumatic stress from childhood trauma. I've also been through therapy, medications, unemployment, and a couple hospitalizations. A year ago I started making drastic changes in my life to put my recovery first. I can now say that I am employed, hopeful and the most emotionally stable I've been in all my life.
The biggest change I made in my life was a conscious choice to do anything and everything available to not end up in the hospital again. I started meditating twice a day, attending support groups, volunteering as well as talking to friends and family in great depths about emotional issues. In partial hospitalization I was reminded of meditation which I used to enjoy as a kid in martial arts classes I used to take. I started studying meditation and meditating on a daily basis. A week or so of meditating for 15 minutes twice a day I decided to start attending a local support group. I was apprehensive at first because of the t.v. stereotype of support groups that was drilled in my head. The support group was nothing like I ever expected and helped me tenfold in the beginning of my recovery.
After attending several weeks of support groups and meditating I finally started to find a calm in my head I'd never felt. I still had one major dilemma...any time I was in public I would have crippling panic attacks. I could handle being by myself or with people who live with mental health issues themselves (peers). A person in the support group suggested I try volunteering at a place called the Keya House. I learned that it was staffed by people like me who have been through their own mental health issues who offer support for those having a difficult time. A light bulb went off in my head and the very next day I called about volunteering as a peer companion.
A month after volunteering at the Keya House, learning about the recovery model, daily meditation, support groups along with other changes I made...I found myself finally able to step into public places with no panic attacks. It was then that I started talking in depth to my friends and family about my mental health issues. Before I started working on my recovery I did talk with my family and friends about my mental health issues but not as deeply as after. I'll admit at first it was nerve racking explaining how from ages 7 to 22 I had suicidal thoughts to my parents. After it was said though I felt a great weight off my shoulders. It became a lot easier to talk to my good friends about why I would disappear for weeks on end with no explanation
I want anyone who may be in a similiar situation to know that through this whole process and even today I have struggles. I'm a big proponent of saying that recovery is not a straight line. In the past couple years there have been ups, downs, and several struggles to keep myself stable. There are still occasional fights with depression, panic attacks and post traumatic stress triggers. I have just learned through holistically approaching wellness that I can recognize and cope easier than before. I will also say what works for me doesn't work for everyone and making life changes isn't an easy thing.
The biggest tip I can give to others who are working on their own recovery is to build your support system and go from there.
Thank you for allowing me to give you a little background on myself. I plan on writing at least once a month on a topic. If you have any suggestions, questions or something you would like me to write about shoot me an email at mluna@mha-ne.org.
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